Sunday, July 24, 2005

My li'le ones..

The school's been starting for about a week now..
I got 11 li'le angels *or u can say devils st..* They're sooooooo cute..
I'm handlin the pre-nursery class..its for 2-3-year-old kids..

Got this girl named Valerie *lili*.. she's so cute..my partner says she
looks like 'dora' the cartoon thing *i don't really know which
cartoon* .. Lili's so cute and very smart..she knows all about
3 basic colors a'dy *blue, red, yellow*, 3 basic shapes *circle, square,
triangle* and she speaks 3 languages *english, mandarin, and bahasa*
I really like her..tho' sometimes she's moody but she's one of my
favorite in class.. Talking with her sometimes improves my mandarin
too u know.. *teachers gotta learn..* hahahha..

Another one, I got Sky..this one is mixed indo-korean..he's soooo
handsome..really! handsome one.. But he's so cranky..he's been in
school before..but he's very close to his auntie..*even closer than to
his mom I suppose* I like the way he talks.. He cried badly last friday
coz I din let his auntie in the class.. I tried to talk with him one on one..
He kept on crying..but he really understood what I was saying.. He's
gramatically good for kid his age.. Got this one time he yelled, 'Sky
mau mainnnnn!!' I told him to speak nicely..then suddenly he changed
the tone of his voice..looked straight into my eyes..and said softly..
'Miss..sky mau main..' ughh..me melted that exact moment..hahah..

Next one..Evan.. this one is very cranky..more than Sky. He was
screaming soooooo badly when he came for trial class with his mom..
He din wanna go into the class..stayed in the front office and cried..
His mom said that he's afraid to get in coz our building looks a bit
like the saloon where he used to get his hair cut.. He hates going to
saloon.. They went home that day without having the trial class..
The next day he showed up without mommy, only with nanny and
his driver. This time even worse..he din wanna get out of the car.
It took me and my partner half and hour..in his car..on that hot day
to make him go into our class.. But then we succeeded..he was one
of the best and nicest student in our class now..

The worst one is Aurielle.. Me and all the teachers think that
maybe she got this autistic behaviour.. She keeps on screaming
and crying without any good reason..ignoring people..banging
herself when we tried to hug her..and less eye-contact..
I take pity on her mom..she looks very sad and frustrated when
she saw her li'le girl in our class.. Me myself can't take good control
of her.. We really think that she need special treatment..
But its only our speculation ..gotta observe more..

I love them..watsoever angels or devils..they're so cuteee..

a year..

Its been a year now..
I shud've started to trust him more
but the truth is I can't..
I shud've be grateful for what I have now but dunno why
I got this big whole inside..
I hate this jealousy thing..
Everytime he mentioned a girl's name
I went crazy..
Been trying to convince myself that..even if I loose him
It really won't affect me much..
Guess I'll never know 'til it happens..
Dun wanna make the same mistake..
but the truth is I've been making the same one..
Over and over again..
Dunno when to stop..
Dunno how to stop..
Dunno what to say..
Dunno how to say..

There's a havoc happenin in my life..
Time to settle down and sweep it off.

Sunday, July 17, 2005

go harry potter!

I finally got my harry potter last saturday.. huakakakka..
been waiting..'n waiting..'n waiting..'n then pufffff..
july 16..harry potter's on da wayyy..its actually
in my room now..heiuehihe.. Go Rowling goooo!

Actually i wasn't in my best mood today.. I juz felt that
i got no one who really understands me..even my closest
ones..but then again i realized that everyone surely got
something in particular that makes others cant really
understand u even if they wanted to.. I juz have this
stupid feeling..everything's juz not enuf for me..
i don't know if i a'dy got the best one
for me..but even when people think that it's the best for me..
its juz not enuf..

I wanted to stop all my routines..juz to clear up my mind..

Ughhhhhh..is it juz me?